If I Die Young

A penny for my thoughts, no, I'll sell them for a dollar.
They're worth so much more after I'm a goner
Maybe then you'll hear the words I've been singing
Funny how when you're dead, people start listening

No, I'm not being morbid or whatever..I promise..haha..I'm just hooked on the song, and I find it really meaningful. There's a lot we can learn from this.



So, a little "what-if" post here...interesting to ponder about, frankly. What if I were to die young? (I'd want this song to be played at my funeral, for one thing =P) But the main questions would be..am I satisfied with my life so far? Have I achieved enough to say that my time here on Earth wasn't a complete waste? Have I told the people I love, how much they mean to me? What will my demise mean to everyone?

Will I be able to look back and say - I've done all I can, I didn't waste my time, I made a difference? Can I leave without regrets?

To be completely honest, no I'm not ready to leave. I feel I've got unfulfilled purposes in my life - that there are things that I was put on this Earth to achieve, and I'd like to fulfill them first. But if..just if.....

I'd say, I'm proud of the things I've done so far. I can confidently say my life wasn't a waste. I've lived, loved, and made a difference. Yes, things are going pretty bad for me at the moment here in Aus. Worse than I can ever imagine. But that doesn't change the life I've had before..the things I've been through, good and bad, are cherished experiences that I'll never trade.

Life ain't always what you think its gonna be

I guess we'll never know what is to happen, eh?

A penny for my thoughts, no, I'll sell them for a dollar.
They're worth so much more after I'm a goner
Maybe then you'll hear the words I've been singing
Funny how when you're dead, people start listening

That's the sad fact, isn't it? We take people for granted; regretting bitterly only when we realise its too late. We realise that we didn't listen enough, care enough..didn't tell that someone who much they meant to us..didn't give that person one last hug. I learnt that the hard way - through Reve's sudden demise, leaving me realising that I never thanked that wonderful woman for being my friend, my mentor, and my role model. It tore me to pieces with regret, and frankly, I've yet to truly come to terms with it.

I don't want that to ever happen, ever again. I've resolved to let everyone I love know how much I love them. If I can muster the courage to overcome to awkwardness..its frankly very very difficult to say those words - I Love You.

My two beloved parents..My relatives and cousins..All my doggies, past present and future...Huiyen, Sharon, Lixian, and the rest of my high school sisters who first taught me that siblings didn't have to be blood-related...Erik, Heeian, and all the brothers I've never had...The study room gang & the Geass-ed 4 who made Intec life beyond memorable..Tina, Yenmii, Laura, Akee, Cass, and and all those who brighten and enrich life in Aus...I could go on and on and on and on and on, if I want to name the number of people (and animals) who coloured my life. But anyway, you know who you are, and I LOVE YOU.

And to those of you reading this..(probably very few, considering my limited updates lately, and utter lack of variety in my posts)..do ask yourself this question as well. What if I died tomorrow? What if, today's the last day I can do all that I want to do? Have I acheived all that I want to achieve? Have I been striving to be the best I can be? Am I loved, and have I loved?

Its not the years you live, but its the life in your years that matter. Friends, live and love as if you were to die tomorrow.

What I never did is done

So, there's no point lamenting on the things I didn't get the chance to do. Those too, have passed.

Gather up your tears, save them in your pocket..save them for a time that you're really gonna need them.

Don't cry for me. It'll break me far more when I look down and see everyone I love upset. Rejoice in the life that I've lived, in the things I've done, the experiences I've enjoyed, and rest knowing that each one of you made a difference in my life.


When my time comes, I'd like to be able to say "I've had just enough time..". No regrets, just the peace to enter wherever I'm headed to next.

If I die young, send me away with the words of a love song.....

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Ok, out of the what-ifs...I'm REALLY GONNA DIE YOUNG tomorrow if I don't finish studying repro for the exams tomorrow!!!!!!!!!!! (I cannot believe I'm blogging at this time..ARGH!!

Cya, Pawprintz!!